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Nuance is relating the pepperspray/hitchhiker story right now. I'm hiding in the bedroom. It's one of those stories that I get really embarrassed about for being so dumb and naive. Moral of the story, never help anyone. Or, I guess hitchhikers. Whichever. Hey, at least we're not dead.
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[25 Nov 2009|01:47pm] |
today This past decade/half decade can go eat a bag of razor blades.
Time for a pick me up.
glee did Imagine, and they didn't do the standard sanitizing of cutting out "imagine no religon" like frequently happens with the song when adapted for a network like fox. Loved this song when we sang it for chorus. It arranged so nicely for chorus.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e13K0FzTCNk
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[25 Nov 2009|01:12pm] |
So glad to know that a man on man kiss is so vulgar and so much dirtier than hetero-kissing that it needs to be blurred and pixelated for morning show news broadcasts.
Die in a fire.
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[25 Nov 2009|12:12pm] |
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There are no cats in America and the streets are paved with cheese.
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[24 Nov 2009|11:01am] |
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So I'm scared of sleeping. I never know what's going to trigger a really bad set of nightmares. I can listen in on a roleplaying session of All Flesh Must Be Eaten, or watch a commentary on Xanadu, and be fine, have no nightmares specifically about those possible triggers. Or I can trim my nails, and then that night have long graphic nightmares about chewing the nails down to nubbins, then tearing them out of the beds with my teeth, then continuing on the rest of the flesh of my fingers until I reached the bone. I woke up terrified that I'd actually been tearing at my cuticles and nails because the sensations and pains were so vivid and real.
Seriously brain, what do you want?
So anyway, every night it's something like this. Occasionally I sleep through the night with no dreams or pleasant ones, but more often than not it's being pregnant with chest bursting spiders of ever increasing size and number. I don't like going to sleep anymore, I dread it, but I know that if I put off going to sleep for too long, I'll get more exhausted and that only makes the nightmares worse.
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[20 Nov 2009|03:06pm] |
This has been a rather unpleasant week, much of what has gone wrong being my own fault for forgetfulness etc. Cost of idiocy for this week >$350.
It's not ending soon enough.
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[19 Nov 2009|01:35pm] |
Dear Excel and Access:
Make nice with each other, or I'm breaking out the firehose and advanced interrogation techniques (too soon!).
No Love,
Me
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[18 Nov 2009|03:50pm] |
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As much as I liked getting the extra hour of sleep, and don't miss driving straight into the sunset at night, I kind of miss leaving work while it's still daylight outside. Having < 30 minutes of sun in a day, and that time spent in a car, is really doing a number on me and my sense of time.
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[16 Nov 2009|02:22pm] |
Great aunt died (French Canadian side of the family, so the great aunts alway got called Ma Tante and the regular aunts always got called Tante, not sure why). Dad's going up to Canada with his sisters, that'll be a crazy car ride. I've got a weird apathy thing going on with it. I liked her, she was nice and really close to the family, but I'm not registering. Last of her generation on my Dad's side I think.
Same weekend, my Uncle (regular uncle, not great), starts having multiple seizures and gets hospitalized. Might be a side effect of the anti-psychotic meds (clozapine and the other anti-psychotics mess you up something fierce), may be something else. He's going to get transitioned from the crazy-home to an old-folks home soon-ish due to this and general lack of mobility. Also not really registering. Everything's just sort of muted and gray tones. I feel like I should be having a stronger reaction to these things than just "oh" and "hunh", but I'm not.
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[16 Nov 2009|12:47pm] |
Couldn't fall asleep last night until some time after 4. My brain is not good today.
This weekend I picked up a book called "Tintin in the New World". Not really looking closely, I thought it would be a book deconstructing Tintin and the evolution of the imperialist views that the comic puts forth and reinforces. Not so. It's actually a novel that brings together Tintin with the characters from Thomas Mann's "The Magic Mountain." It's like a literary mash-up. I could not for the life of me remember where I knew "The Magic Mountain" from, or the characters, but they had really distinctive names and personalities. Turns out Thomas Mann wrote "Death in Venice", a novella that I read a few months ago, and I'd skimmed through "The Magic Mountain" after. I really don't like that guy.
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[13 Nov 2009|01:02pm] |
*Climactic battle in Mage. I summoned ghost bears, managed not to die, didn't really do too much, and wracked up a boatload of paradox. The bears were mostly backup for Abe Lincoln and the Sears Tower. Chicago is a depressing a place. Still no Detroit.
*glee: I have thoughts and feelings about this week's show, that relate to my thoughts and feelings on politics, identity, visibility, and fiction, but they require more thought before I write them down. They meander, like my thoughts tend to do.
*Dollhouse got cancelled, not that I was watching it. Also, Middleman got cancelled a while ago and I totally missed it.
*When I start drifting off to sleep at night, there's something that keeps rustling in the hedges beneath my window. Probably a skunk, but when this occurs after reading Changeling, it does something to my half conscious brain.
*Lieberman is a wrong thing that is made of wrongness. I don't know why I fixate on him so much, I just do.
*Free Playstation Network copies of the Star Trek movie are getting released on Monday. The TIME blog Nerdworld is spinning off into an independent website Techland which is launching on Monday. To promote, they'll be giving out the codes to a "large number" of people. Not sure how many the large number consists of. http://nerdworld.blogs.time.com/2009/11/12/in-which-i-tell-you-how-to-score-star-trek-early-appease-your-relaunch-rage/
I'm not a trek fan, but know some of you are, and have PSN.
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[11 Nov 2009|11:25am] |
Due to recent incidents proving my inability to master the basics of self care*, I'm getting one of those chore lists that you use for children, with stickers, and putting it on my door so I see it before I leave each day. It's embarassing, but maybe it will work. One day I will have aptitude the exceeds child levels. That day will be awesome.
*Self care includes things like maintaining my apartment, checking mail, keeping up with all of my paperwork etc. I can manage to take 3 showers a day no problem, but checking my mail panics me so it is avoided.
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[10 Nov 2009|12:39pm] |
Nuance @ Giles on Buffy Last Night: "God! Why do they have to be so angry and bitter! I wouldn't be Angry and Bitter!"
Me: *Looks at her and blinks*
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The whole marriage equality thing keeps making me have these ghoulish thoughts like "well, in another 10 to 20 years enough people in the right demographic will have died so that marriage equality will happen." Having key members of my family in that demographic that I inexplicably like make me always do a guilt double-take at those thoughts. That and wishing people dead to further my own worldview is sort of antithetical to my beliefs. I'm bad at this whole "consistency" thing.
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Proud Mary on glee. PROUD MARY!!
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[09 Nov 2009|01:53pm] |
Parents hadn't heard from me in 5-ish days, and assumed I was dead. I'm not sure what a "healthy" amount of communication is with parents, but I don't think I'm there. 4-7 calls a week on average, where my side of the conversation usually involves intermittent "mmm-hmmm"s.
D&D On-line is still ok I guess. There are dungeons, and there was a dragon. Expectations met.
Back unexpectedly went out last night. I was bending over to remove a sock and it just did this weird thing and I was on the ground. It's been twinging weirdly since, and some earlier in the day before it happened. No pain, just a weird twinge. Not sure what caused it, I haven't done any lifting, heavy or otherwise lately. Only lower back, which is weird, because lower back never bothers me. Odd.
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[09 Nov 2009|10:02am] |
Sleep for last night was mostly a wash. I did have one non-nightmare dream about Ghost in the Shell. The Major and Togusa were going to test a prototype car for the department because Arimaki owed someone else a favor for once, and an assassin hacked the car to try and kill the Major. Togusa had been complaining because convertibles cause his mullet to tangle and the major told him to stop whinging. Then she went and delt with the hacker the way she always deals with people that attempt to kill her: with extreme prejudice. The actual bad guy that set up the assassination was cool with it though, because he was setting it up to get the assassin killed off, and if the Major had died too, hey bonus cookie.
Weird thing? Haven't started watching 2nd gig yet, so no clue where the dream came from.
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[08 Nov 2009|02:16pm] |
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While I did not actually go to school with Crystal and Katy, going to their Wedding Reception reminded me how much I missed the UConn circle of friends.
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[06 Nov 2009|02:23pm] |
This week is not ending fast enough.
I seem to be having that same thought, every day, every week.
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[05 Nov 2009|04:09pm] |
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Still watching Buffy Season 7. Much better than I was expecting. I thought this was supposed to be the suck season. So far, the Enya-centric episode "Selfless" and the "Conversations With Dead People" episodes have stood out. In regards to the latter, the Big Bad for this season is AWESOME so far. I think my opinions of this season may be a bit rose-tinted because I'm mentally editing Dawn out of episodes.
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[04 Nov 2009|10:09am] |
*Marriage got defeated in Maine. Stupid Maine.
*David Tennant is coming to America for a new show/pilot. It's a dramedy. On NBC. About a lawyer that has panic attacks. Boo-urns.
*I was wrong about the no problems with Vista comment about D&D Online. When the opening animation starts, if you don't press the escape key right away, totally crashes.
*I'm cranky today. Cranky is a funny word.
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[03 Nov 2009|02:44pm] |
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In keeping with my wyrd-luck, after Thursday's debacle costing me X dollars, I've received information that I have roughly X dollars coming back to me in unclaimed property (paycheck) from a previous employer from about a decade ago. Paid the bills Friday afternoon, got the phone call Friday night. I have to go to a notary in CT so I can get the money, but still, odd coincidence again.
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